Sunday, December 27, 2009

Metanoeo

Posted by Alienfloyd

It is with a humble heart I sit down to compose a few words. It was good to be with family this Christmas weekend. We began with Christmas eve at Mike and Shana's. Christmas Day at our home and then a dinner at my parents with all my brothers and sisters and family. Prime rib at Chuck and Judy's on Saturday an then Quinn's blessing on Sunday. I felt at ease for the first time in many years. It was fun, the kids had fun.

Christmas day I was living on three consecutive days of 4-5 hours of sleep and it had caught up to me. I was grumpy, trying really hard to stay focused and enjoy the day. It took the surprise smile of a little man poppin' up in front of me unexpectedly. It took me a few seconds to realize it was Max, Lindsey's boy. Those few minutes brightened my day and made me forget my grumpiness.

I 've always been sensitive to contention. I hate it, I despise yelling, arguing for malicious intent and tormenting of the innocent. Ironically it causes me to become angry. This is followed by depression and self loathing for becoming that which I hate. A little insight into me. Take it for what its worth.

I'm really excited to have a big boy Ipod, I still love my shuffle for running. Thanks Dave and Lori, bytheway Dave repairs Ipods http://www.mypooripod.com/

I will miss my brother when he moves away to CO.

Tim blessed Quinn today. Tim your awesome!

LST Tomorrow.

Peace



Sunday, December 13, 2009

Finally

Posted by Alienfloyd




So in the current tradition.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

13 13 13 13 13 13 13 13 13 13 13 13

Posted by Alienfloyd

So I'm a little late and I wanted to post Rollercoster of love by Red hot Chilli peppers..but I would get hurt.. so Happy anniversary.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Week at a glance

Posted by Alienfloyd

This week began the usually busy month of December. So in Random thought order..

Happy Birthday to Lori! And Happy Birthday to my Mom. Other Birthdays of note..Doc, Beau and Jen R. Happy days I hope.
Carpet Cleaning
Vernor's Ginger Soda
Toyota Forerunner

Harmonia and Eno
'76












Watching a friend lose his job (not everything is positive)
Reading to my children at night.

















Manitou Nixon

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

On my mind

Posted by Alienfloyd

List: Bad Leutenant

Dead Man's Bones,
Glen Beck
Butter Rum candy
Pomegranate 7-Up
Rockstar Fruit Juiced
Tim Cohen
GXP Challenge
Lone Star Tacqueria
Armistice Day
Wow Heads

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

A transient moment

Posted by Alienfloyd


Impromtu Music Review:


Dead Man's Bones: Pa Pa Power. I'm really like this song. Ok
Party on!

So in the wake of the bright sunshine and two 12 hour drives I have felt out of place in my own skin. The brright flashy box on the wood thing has lost its appeal. The scratchy pain on left knee ruining my running. No more zen moments, no more comfortable feelings. Retreating into the deep recesses of my mind. Dusty compartments musty with lack of use. Melting down verbal assault into a fire ball of delegation and lack of constraint. Living a realm of uncertainty, driving my mind off a cliff..well almost.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Stop turnover!

Posted by Alienfloyd

Faster thumping in my ears my heart rate increases, believe, believe believe, you just got to believe. click click click, clack, clack, clack. The sounds reverberates from one-side of my skull to the other resonating in the core of my mind.


Music like opiates calm my soul, take me to another place. Numb.

Sunday, October 11, 2009
Posted by Alienfloyd


Every once in a while life will give you one of those you gotta be kidding me moments. This entire last week was much like that. Sunday church was as usual with Nixon not wanting to sit 5 minutes in a pew. So I'm in the foyer wrestling him and soon to be joined by Nate. One of our visitors who didn't seem to really want to be there came out of the Chapel holding a child and a Monster. Now I'm not going to lie and say I've never tried one, but next time I want a pick me up I'm going to hide a NOS in the diaper bag. I'll never fall asleep again in church. I 'll start breaking out in a sweat just sitting there. Rock on Monster dude. I have also been fantasizing about singing in a metal band.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Bounce this on off your noggin!

Posted by Alienfloyd

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Gripped by fear..or maybe something else

Posted by Alienfloyd
Monday, September 28, 2009

Dicky V has nothing on MGMT

Posted by Alienfloyd

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ad-tgbtbCEM


Embedded for your protection..watch at the risk of nightmares.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

You've been Falco'd!!!!

Posted by Alienfloyd

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Why!

Posted by Alienfloyd


I could turn this mood around.. but what good would that do. Callous, blistered and bruised. My heart cracking like the ice on a glacier of fear. The tears were there I could feel them but they refused to run. I don't want to touch the pain, afraid it will infect me. Fermented mind drunk on Absinthe. Fractal vision blasted with darkness.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Clubbin' across the pond!

Posted by Alienfloyd

Saturday, September 12, 2009

The new beginning for me..

Posted by Alienfloyd

As I drove the 30 mile stretch to SLC today I was apprehensive and a littler torn. I haven't been to a political rally since 92? I think. Reagan was there among others. I found parking quickly in my favorite place and as I made my way to the front of the Capitol building I could hear the crowd and the adrenaline began to pump. I caught the tail end of the Chafetz's speech. I was impressed with Mr. Wimmer of the Patrick Henry Caucus. The crowd's enthusiasm began to wane a little and after talking to a neighbor that I ran into. I left around noon. Overall I was glad I went. The crowd was a little more laid back tan I expected.


Anyway Peter Murphy's Deep is winding down. I have discovered CD's again..guess what quality does count after all.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Falling

Posted by Alienfloyd

Rutted and forgotten, beaten down by years of travel. The constant squeaking of the wheels. The depth of pain I feel bubbling free from the recesses of years of burial. The clarity of thought. Broken in to shattered pieces of fears and corroded will. Trying to grasp that last strand of hope before falling off the precipice. Falling....Falling ...Falling

Feeling melancholy

Posted by Alienfloyd

Sunday, September 06, 2009

A Reality Check for Mindless Self indulgence

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After the Club this is usually what happens.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Post Clubbin Chill!

Posted by Alienfloyd

Monday, August 31, 2009

Jen-Knee want to go clubbin'?

Posted by Alienfloyd

Sunday, August 30, 2009
Posted by Alienfloyd

Weekend In Review:


Friday night was spent watching cool Youtube music videos while Lori sewed. Interesting conversation ensued with a few cool individuals on the facelook. We got up early Saturday and drove out to Murray for my Uncle Milton's funeral. It was good to see the extended family we only see at such life events. I was sad my Grandma's sister didn't know who I was. She has always been my favorite relative of that side of the family still living. She reminds me of my Grandma long since passed away. My parents took us to Macaroni Grille which was fun. Lori has had a migraine since Saturday night.

The Bishop said today to not use others behavior as a justification for our behavior. It was interesting and very true. It has caused me t0 think about how much I may or may not look at others and make decisions based on what others do. I guess it pays to have good friends that are good examples. I know I 'm not always a good example. Case in point my 3 year old wanting to listen to the Rain song. Oh crap my boy wants to listen to the Violent Femmes, and Addy wants to listen to Vast. Nice example Dad.

Meanwhile I sit listening to my BYU choir music when everyone is asleep.
I need some more good LDS CD's (No Afterglow please). Mo TAb is okay but I usually find it too overwhelming. I guess I like the more A cappella stuff/less organ stuff.


Friday, August 28, 2009

Flashback

Posted by Alienfloyd

Remixed

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

Weekend Brief

Posted by Alienfloyd

Interesting Weekend. Camp out in the equivalent of a cow pasture. Novice off road skills. Court of honor with a surprise Wood badge ceremony and a skit pulled off by the scouts that was good. I really enjoyed the Temple Dedication and the time with my parents however brief. I was buoyed up by my sister in Minn. I have a challenge for this week I'm looking forward too.


Peace

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Flower to HIde

Posted by Alienfloyd

I've been to the edge of the deep green sea. I 've seen the color of my mortality, I read the writing on the wall. I 've discounted the coldness inside looked for the light that's outside. I tried to warm my bones beside the fire. What's the color of incessant beating through narrow veins? Blue or black like tar. My fingers let the wind wrap it's soft willowy strokes in between. Where 's the dream in the seam of my mind. What's the voice of my understanding..yet I can't talk I can't speak the fear wells up and strangles my reason. " A flower fading too soon..."


B

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Lactic Acid

Posted by Tooele Brezoff

My legs burn like mad and my foot feels broken, all from running 11 miles. Lori drove me up to almost the dirt road in Middle canyon. When the Odometer said ll miles she dropped me of and left me alone. So I just started running. My legs went numb because it was cold but by mile 10 I was plenty warm and eager to get home. I muscled out the last mile feeling pretty good and turned into our entrance. A few seconds later I have a pit bull chasing me on my heels for 20 yds or so. It's dragging a large chain supposedly meant to keep it tied up. My mind is running through multiple scenarios just waiting to be attacked. I stay calm and pretend it doesn't exist it goes away.

The owners weren't home the dog goes to the pound. Too bad.

The Bee's game was fun even though we only lasted just over an hour. Nate caught on real quick and I think I have a partner for future sporting events.

Highlights:
Friday off
Hot Dog's at the Ball park
Lori confronting drunks
A police man with a sense of humour
A good run
Dr. Pepper
Robintino's
Nicole at Robintino's and the hookup
Ender's Shadow
Burn Notice
Cheesy 80's music
Ritz Chicken
Hometeaching.....

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Ho! Bean!

Posted by Alienfloyd

Intersting weekend started by getting bad news followed by good news. We had some friends over for games (Nice surprise I hope for one). It was fun and a g0od way to end the week. We stayed up too late and didn't make it to the open house the next morning. The pig picken for Bonnie and Bryan was awesome. Great food and some of he best hush puppies I have ever had. A couple of highlights happened on the Facebook. I know sounds weird. I had a conversation with my little sister that was awesome and much needed. I also had a former Bishop from Phoenix add me.


I only ran 6 rather than 10 miles in the hot sun. disappointing I know, but I'm still alive. I also had a hallway conversation with a bigger music fan than me today that sparked my interest in a cool new direction.

I also have almost finished Ender's Game in one day. It's amazing.

In light of the weekend tomorrow awaits.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

4 starry nights and then rain

Posted by Alienfloyd

So I spent a week in the high Uinta's at Camp Tomahawk. I loved the night skies clear and moon free revealing the stars in all their glory. It was so peaceful a times it was a spiritual experience. No phone, no TV , no distractions (other than the boys singing Disney tunes). It's not hard to see how one can get into camping and back country adventure and into scouting at such a cool place. I did miss my family and I wished they were with me.

I was nicknamed Heath after the Joker, one of the boys said I like to go out at night and kill people. Nice! I guess I've made a good impression. Pffttt! Then Kevin and Chris started laughing and I could sense the Brokeback jokes... Ahh yeah gotta love camp.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

It's 3am are you listening...

Posted by Tooele Brezoff

It's 1:26 am and my wife is not home yet. I have inherited the worry trait from my mother. I'm sure I'll be the one waiting up fo my daughter to get home from her dates. I also have a pretty vivid and warped imagination. Oh and I just watched Mad Max. Great movie. Boy does Gibson look young.


I'm so blasted tired...

Freakin zombies

Monday, July 13, 2009

Limbic Region

Posted by Alienfloyd

I had a transitory thought...it's gone now. I found my center over the weekend. It's nice to regain focus on what's important. Sometimes the hectic nonstop of this life wears me down until I am running on fumes always in react mode. I am learning the importance of making quick decisions and moving forward not dwelling on the details for an eternity. Mistakes will happen, learn and move on. Too bad some mistakes last 4 years.


Song: Catherine Wheel "She's my friend"
Food: Hershey's plain chocolate bar
Drink: Sobe Energy
Task: Scout Camp Prep.
Sentimentality: VW bug stalling in the intersection after working all day in the summer sun in Phoenix.
Book: Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman
Missing: Relationship with my siblings
Current Drama: Moody children
Hope: Clear, calm peaceful mind
Dreams: Cluttered, beautiful, violent
Last meal: California Kitchen Pizza (cold)
Current state: Tired but not.

Monday, July 06, 2009

Nightshift

Posted by Alienfloyd

Some days the cold shale facade is broken down and I feel real emotion. I know shocking. A small window of mortality breaks free in my mind and I see things as they really are. Typically I want to hide under a rock but I've learned to quickly build back the wall. Tonight I remain lucid enough to write. My dreams over the weekend were insane causing me to reflect on why they would be that way. I see dreams as extensions of my innermost desires, needs and sometimes lessons or answers to questions. When something that would never happen in reality happens in a dream all the same "real feelings and emotions" are present for me. I wake with the raw feelings and sometimes spend the day trying to shake the feelings of the dreams. Sometimes people I would never expect infect my dreams. "Stay in your own dreams dang it. " I wonder whose dreams I cross over into. Maybe that is the problem I wander into someone else's subconscious. Crazy..maybe not.


I think I will listen to the Commodores now, they relax me.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

How 'bout a shake?

Posted by Alienfloyd

I am in a cloud of confusion, disillusion and wonder why people die. The innocents being snuffed out for wanting freedom in Iran, for wanting a change. Obama! Do you care? It doesn't fit your master plan. Better hurry and send Hillary maybe she can talk or sanction them into submission. Pffft! What a bunch of hollow shelled, commutard, fascist liberal elitists.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I need...disraction..

Posted by Alienfloyd

Excited by the thought of getting in the mountains even for a few hours. Thoughts of peace in my head free of noise and distraction. I need the sweet cool air and the trees folding in on me. I need the release from the work week. I can only keep up the pseudo-positive attitude for so long before I get recalcitrant..."Always should be someone you really love.."

I've been intensely focused on a large project to distraction. "I'm on the white cliffs of Dover thinking it over and over.."

The Ragnar was a pretty good experience this year. I recovered alot faster than I thought I would. Marathon training starts on Monday. 13 weeks.

Alone was killer

"I think I was Bruce Lee I might of been Michael Caine.." Delicious CW


Watch Dare form the Gorillaz...Shaun Ryder of the Happy Mondays ' Head is in it.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

SSENKRAD

Posted by Alienfloyd

Darkness like a comforting blanket wrapping its arms snugly around me, a cool breeze wisping, willowing between my fingers. The night has its flows in a rhythm pulsating along a trail ministering sweet sounds of healing. It's own music it's own voice loud enough to not understand quiet enough to be deafening. Fleeting...the Sun washes it away.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Disorder

Posted by Alienfloyd

Respect the way to go to respect the way to go, what's in the flow for my life. Scribbling notes in disorder fit into the borders outside the lines of providing truth.
It's an order. Sleep to few to survive.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Trance-endental

Posted by Alienfloyd

My eardrums pulsated to the beats as they shook my mind bouncing off the inside of my skull. Tortured inside my own head but numbed by the beats by the melodies by the lyrics at times. What skin do I inhabit twisted from the inside out writhing in a uncomfortable dance flowing with the music. My own heartbeat replaced by trance-endental dub house creations made for high volume and tuning out. My synapses cracking in time to the liquid fresh flow of snatchy scratchy beat tonics. "I just got to find peace and unity" ...maybe I'm bass ed in Euro converted to the creativity of my ancentral lands. The US a can't touch these funky beAts.


Monday, June 01, 2009

Acoutrements of Fascination

Posted by Alienfloyd

I have been pondering the dichotomy of my existence lately. On one hand I want to retain the youthful enjoyments of music and concerts on the other I want to be an up standing father and husband. I want to ride the hills and run the streets pushing my body to the extreme.  I want to play with my kids make them laugh and  have fun.  I guess this last concert caught up with me. I think I will be a little more careful next time. I can't handle the hard harsh screamy  crap anymore. (But you went to NIN? I did and loved every minute, maybe because it's not screamy screamo, but from an actual musician.)  I digress,  Basically my wants are are just that, wants.  Needs, ..asceticism.  Who cares! 


I like Lime Rickey's I tried Brandon's  recipe, except I used Grape Crush instead of Fanta. I think I liked it better. (3 teaspoons of lime juice) 

I am reading a great book right now called the Tipping Point. A band that is Tipping past the point right now is TATE(The Airborne Toxic Event).  They have renewed my love of modern music.  Check them out on Youtube.  When we were walking in to the Venue the band playing was the Street Dogs. "Wow all these Boston bands sound the same, I said" I was thinking of the DKM(Dropkick Murphy's). Low and behold the lead singing of the Street Dogs was the lead for DKM. Sweet ! 

Have you ever sweat so bad that the stench of yourself is hard to bear.
Do you see the gathering clouds....?



I want to surf an Ice-nine wave...


Friday, May 29, 2009

Bash Quick Hit

Posted by Alienfloyd

Street Dogs----A---Boston punk rock loved them

Billy Boy Poison---b(-)  Entertaining foul lyrics though spastic
Single File   C   Eh
Madina Lake  C(-) Ben Stiller on Speed  didn't like he music but fun to watch
Escape the Fate  FFFFFFF---I had to go for a walk, what utter crap
Airborne Toxic Event A+  Wow , beautiful, inspiring Awesome!
Alkaline Trio B+  First time hearing them, really liked there sound and tight music
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus  B I liked the last two songs they finished strong.
Unwritten Law  A  A surprise favorite of the night, I wan to see them at a smaller venue
Offspring B--Live radio replays of all there popular songs The Piano solo was unexpected and cool.
better than  I expected

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Vidalia

Posted by Alienfloyd

I can't concentrate...oh Yeah freakin Vidalia onions rock. I sautee'd them with some mushrooms. I really couldn't get enough.  They aren't bad raw either. Sweet!!Literally.  


Tap Tap...anyone out there?

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Weekend in review

Posted by Alienfloyd

First of all I have to say I am extremely proud of my brother -in-law Tyler.  He graduated this week and also won a Student of the Year award. He was also accepted in one of the best schools in his field for a Masters program. Their son was born a few weeks ago, I held him for the second time today, I admit the first time I got a little emotional. Great job Tyler and Linny!!! We will miss you guys.  


I had another cool weekend with my family. (Yes including my wife) We had fun at Rick and Teresa's playing games with them and Dave and Gabrielle.  It was nice to laugh after a particularly tough week.  I took my kids to the various stores that Tooele has to offer on Saturday after the rain canceled our hike. Natalie loves to hike and when I said we weren't going she literally burst into tears. She proceed to cry the rest of the day when I would not buy her a stuffed animal at DI. We went to Wendy's where we saw real cowboys with chaps and spurs and then a dozen or so soldiers in camou came in as well as the 9 or 10 year old boy that talked on his celly like a big person.. Dude with phone wouldn't stop staring at Addy. I found my protective instincts kicking in.  

I have come to the conclusion that I save to much...surprise!  I was shredding in my garage..the kids were playing outside and soon I had an audience, then I had active participants in the shredding process. Who knew it could be so entertaining.  So picture "OCD guy who never throws anything away and has to look at everything before he shreds trying to control the 6 extra hands throwing thing into the shredder at way uncomfortable speeds.  Fortunately I have been consulting advice on the Internet on what to keep and for how long. It is eye-opening and relevant especially in the age of identity theft.

Now to get a little heavy. on second thoughts no.  Too soon.

Now for something completely random:  If I were obsessed with wood? Would I want to live in a forest or would it be to distracting?

I have to say that the chicken tonight was phenomenal. Great job Kara.  Thanks Mom and Dad for having us non Davis county types over. :) 

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Have you ever danced with the devil in the pale moon light?

Posted by Alienfloyd

So the weekend is over and a decent one it was. Camp out to Rush Valley with the Scouts was fun and definitely the best yet.  The girls had a sleepover at Grandma's so I got to spend some quality time with Nate and Nixon. Nate's a funny boy and today I tossed him the football and he instinctively caught it and threw it back in a perfect spiral, of course the ball is a Nerf and he had to use two hands to throw it.  I was stoked, just to  make sure it wasn't a fluke I threw it a few more times and he caught the ball.  He's growing up and it's fun to watch and be apart of. 


One of the scouts was quoting the Batman movie..hence the title cause you know that's the original Batman ;)

The high council   er Secretary of the Stake Primary spoke on Unity and it was brilliant. She made a comment that it's not about the debate over whether caffeinated beverages were against the word of wisdom or the facial hair on a man is an indicator of righteousness. ..Basically don't judge and don't worry about the inconsequential.  This was nice because while I have felt the disapproving looks when I have had facial hair, not so much in Tooele but in past areas. I won't say anything about the soda. I LIKED THE CHERRY DR PEPPER :p



Sunday, April 05, 2009

The future is as bright as your faith...

Posted by Alienfloyd

I took a couple days off this week to try and regain some sanity after a pretty tough month.  I wasn't in the mood for Conference, feeling pretty cold and hardened to the spiritual lately.  It took until the talk by Elder Holland on Sunday to break through my hard heart. Clearly the purpose of it all was concisely illustrated by Elder Holland. I recommend listening to it if you haven't heard it yet. In a related matter I received an answer to  a question two years in the works.  The simplicity of the Gospel of Jesus Christ is breathtaking in its ability to solve even the most complex issues.



Wednesday, March 25, 2009

That's Utah for YOU!

Posted by Alienfloyd

SO I went to Kohl's tonight to pick up a gift certificate. They had one register manned and a line up. "Help on registers at Teens" blares the overhead page.  An older woman walks up behind me with her son or grandson. 

Boy: Why is there a line?
(Fair question by a boy of average intelligence roughly 7 -8 years old that hates department type stores more than me)
Lady: That's UTAH for you!

WTH!! I thought I had stepped into a different dimension for second. So some how a line at a register is indicative of Utah, I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around this logic.  Oh..she must have been from Idaho ... question asked and answered. So I got up to the register after they opened up another lane.  The lady that was taking so long was a pretty, tall,  African-American women making a purchase.  Well I'm not a smart man but I think this women was being profiled by the clerk because she was all but getting a DNA sample from this woman. Once again ..That's Utah for you.  
Sincerely Confused at Kohl's

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Cholesterol in my eyes

Posted by Alienfloyd

Apparently cholesterol deposits can be seen in eyes and my eye doctor (Mike) has to tell me to go get my cholesterol levels checked.  I'm thinking I'm not so young but I feel young.  My diet has really been bad the last couple of years due to my inability to care what I eat and lack of exercise. This has generally has left me feeling rather like a waste.  I started eating McDeath's again I even had a Whopper the other day and then a killer burger from 5Guys..on Friday.  I want to bike this year but circumstances as they are this may be a bust again and I will be left angry and unhappy with my laziness and state of sub prime performance.  

So how do I get motivated to get out and stop my arteries from hardening?  
This cross section of a coronary artery shows plaque buildup, possibly indicating coronary artery disease—the most common cause of death worldwide. Risk factors for the disease include poor diet, cigarette smoking, and stress, among others. [B&B Photos/Custom Medical Stock Photo. Reproduced by permission.]

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Bad combo meal

Posted by Alienfloyd

I am finding there are not enough hours in the day to get everything done.  My fuse is so short right now that the nice filter that I keep up most of the day is disintegrating like the ozone layer.  I really have no patience any more.  I feel more and more like I could easily become my Grandpa in 10 or 20 years.  A few things that keep me from going ape@#$@.  Not in any order: Nixon my little 1 year old tends to calm me down.  Tellin' stories to Natalie.  Nightly scriptures.  

I 'm feeling my mortality this week but my heart goes out to friends and family that are hurting and have lost. 
I really hate pettiness. I despise pride. I love to see people succeed in life. I need to work on gratitude and friendliness.  

Oh yeah Bad combo meal... Amp, Western Bacon Cheeseburger at Carl's Jr and Cadbury chocolate eggs. (Don't forget the fries).  My heart skips a beat..

Cheers

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Son of a Y

Posted by Alienfloyd

Normally I don't care about sports that much, I do like college basketball.  I however am blown away by the fanatic. Let's use BYU fanatic as an example and compare them to another fanatic ummmm who should I choose....Hitler. Ok Hitler it is.  The fanatic is so completely entrenched in there fandom that they view everything from the eyes of a fanatic.. it is in a sense a religion. If one is brash enough to question there fandom IE religion you are promptly put in your place with the clear understanding that if you cross the line again there will be consequences. This could be a diatribe filibuster on why their team..er deity is the all powerful force in the particular sport and how dare you question their authority.  Gone is logic, for example if you did not go to that school then you are pathetic for being a fan of that school. This clearly smacks of fascism. If you are not blond, blue eyed and straight (this my not apply as we have learned of the perversion of fascists) then you are subhuman not worthy to talk to the more elite fanatic.  If you did not go to that school and you are a fan then somehow you are not able to comment, cheer for or do what ordinary fans do. This philosophy clearly alienates those people that love their teams, buy the merchandise, go to the games, but heaven forbid did not attend college, or went to that school.

This mentality will in the end be the downfall of these individuals especially if alcohol is involved. The alcohol doesn't apply to BYU...oh wait you would be foolish to assume it didn't. 

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Everyone-RBSC

Posted by Alienfloyd


I heard it was coming and then like a siren calling me to Macey's I found the Red Bull Simply Cola.
It's natural and its strong. I love the initial flavor sensation that washes over the taste buds. The lemon -like aftertaste is a little much for me though. By the end of the 16 ounces I had wished I had only got the 8 ounce. It's definitely the most unique and flavorful cola drink I have ever had. I bought two so I will give it another go. The can is pretty cool with the red bull tab. All things in moderation right.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Dreams of the deep green sea..

Posted by Alienfloyd

North by Northwest..


I watched this movie again for the 2nd time while maintaining a fever the entire time and trying not to re taste the foul TheraFlu.  The movie is one of my favorite Hitchcock films.  It retains a certain amount of suspense without being overly cheesy.  

I hate being sick because my mind goes into this weird fog.  I don't always think to clearly.  I was home alone with Nix today and I came downstairs and my feet slipped landing me on my back really hard.  I thought I had broken my arm for a minute. I then realized I have had harder falls on the mountain so my mind was put at ease.  Fortunately Nix was asleep upstairs.  

Now for a little comic relief. What do you get when you cross Michael Phelps with marijuana.  A Water Bong!!! hahahahah.  Dumbass.

I'm reading two books right now. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins and Blackwater.  I'll write more on what I think about them later. 


Ok 25 things :

1. I used to love the smell of a freshly lit Marlboro Red or Camel cigarette. This was due to working with guys that smoked as we built pallets at a dairy. I hated when they smoked menthol's.

2.  I've read more books than I can remember and I've tried to remember.

3. I 've caught scorpions on purpose.

4.  I was obsessed with war and fighting when I was a kid. I wanted to be a Navy pilot for years.

5. I no longer enjoy watching professional sports with the exception of the UFC.

6. I won my 5th grade spelling bee and went to district. This was crazy because I was painfully shy.

7. I came close to death a few times due to asthma.  I know what it's like to fight for my life one breath at a time.

8. I'm a Duke fan, enough said (since 1990 bytheway).

9.My family is the only thing that keeps me going some days.

10. I started running when I was 32, biking when I was 31. 

11. My politics fit a Libertarian profile, less government is always better.

12. I am mildly obsessed with music and finding new music that is good.

more later

Sunday, January 25, 2009

I pledge...

Posted by Alienfloyd

I pledge:


to stop passing gas at the dinner table, I think that will help global warming.
to continue to buy into the social agendas and be oppressed by the government until I am totally reliant upon them for everything.
to only let my kids watch TV and never pick up a book because that way they can be mindless zombies that have no original thought and believe everything that comes out of Hollywood and the Que card readers.
to only eat red meat to really piss off PETA and ALF.
to have Facebook as my sole source of human interaction(or WoW).
to watch the Soup on Tuesdays with the guys.
to think that reality TV is real.
to be asleep more than I'm awake.


Saturday, January 24, 2009

Could be a ring wraith..

Posted by Alienfloyd

Could be Obama is really a ring wraith in disguise.  He sucks the life out of everything  good. Rham kind looks like he's dead.  People do his bidding.  Watch out Frodo..er Rush. 


At approximately 5:00 am the wind really picked up and attempted to roll my tent over, then I could hear the pitter patter of the rain. Oh @#$% I thought that's not good.  About 30 minutes later the Scout master is hitting the tents "get up" he says "got a fire going" .  Slowly I dressed in multiple layers all the while the tent was pushing on my back rain leaking through.  We got up and after about an hour of standing around warming us and other less prepared scouters around the fire, we decided this sucked so the vote was 7 to 1 to leave.  I was soaked through to the third layer by the time we got home around 8 am.  Call us weak, call us lazy, I was glad to be home. I would have much rather it snowed. 

Oh yeah Duke won by 40 points!!!


Sunday, January 18, 2009

Idealism and the idiot

Posted by Alienfloyd

Opera: I don't know opera, I've never listened to opera and probably never will.  I essentially despise musicals. It 's a preference thing I guess.  I think Andrew Lloyd Webber is a freak and I really do not want to partake of the tripe that spews from his mind.  When it comes to movies it takes a lot to really make me like a film.  My dreams are more interesting to me than most movies. Television depresses me. The subject matter is usually crap. Hidden agenda's abound in the shows today attempting to advance a corrupt liberal agenda (ie Will and Grace).  In a weird twist I am enjoying College basketball and the NFL much more.  I think its the real competition and feeling that this matters at least in the lives of the players.  

Gee I can't wait for change day.  I just don't have much faith in the democrats to do anything good.  I would agree that corruption runs deep in both parties and ultimately it will be the people who suffer. 

The final downer:

My heart hurts for two children that were terrorized by a step-father that deserves to be destroyed.  The unspeakable evil of some people defies logic and reason. I am not a violent person but this kind of evil perpatrated on innocent children causes my blood to boil and awakens a righteous indignation deep in my soul.  
Death is too easy for these people.

I am posting the link because I taught the boy in primary and his sister was friends with  my daughter.

http://www.catchwillie.com/


Thursday, January 15, 2009

Undefiled

Posted by Alienfloyd

The birthday was sobering and surprisingly chill. It was great! Thanks to Lori and the kids, Thor, Jen, all the well wishers. It was groovy to go eat lunch with my Dad and two brothers at Jason's Deli. 


When I turned 8 a plane crashed into a river outside DC, then today a plane crashes into the Hudson. Life is short and I find myself in a position in my life that requires me to think quickly, be right most of the time, and not hold back.  Welcome to the unrecognisable me. I am not the same person I used to be.  
Sometime I want to revert back to the shelled anti-social daydreamer put on my Floyd and zone out and pretend I have no responsibility.  It's never the same, I no longer put the cassette player on continuous play  and fall asleep to the sweet sorrow that lies over the land and fall into the leaden sky. One slip and down the hall I fall. What colors will tomorrow bring? 

Monday, January 12, 2009

So....

Posted by Alienfloyd

So I as a citizen in the good ole USA do I get a say where the money goes? Oh... I'm not smart enough, you'll take care of everything.  Let me just write my check on over one second.  Oh you want my guns too. Why the heck not.  Oh Hey I'm a Mormon, I don't fit the standard definition of pseudo Christianity passed off as religion. Oh sorry separation of church and state, what was I thinking lets all embrace the religion of peace...yeah you know Islam.  Where if you leave the religion you gotta die. Sweet.  Oh your gonna "protect " some more land because whacked out environmentalist deodorant free hippy elitist doesn't want some dung beetle to get his panties in a twist.  Thanks I sure appreciate the telling me what's best because heaven forbid I have a coherent thought. While your at it take away my conservative talk shows and any literature you may disagree with.  I know , I know I learned to read in spite of your dumbing down education dang brain of mine couldn't help it. Bytheway I always wanted to try heroin, mind hooking me up ...

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Hold on

Posted by Alienfloyd

As we skate on the thin ice tonight lets stop to enjoy the show. Let us enjoy the debacle of a million years of war and hate. Let's fail to see the common sense answer and choose the biggest lie of all. Let 's find the door that leads down the blackest hall. 

What sits in the darkness gun in hand? or....
Let 's live in ray of hope and light full of warmth and might. Let's find the peace that is given, let's embrace the truth as it exists eternally.  Embrace the truth that is real and substantive.  

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Once again

Posted by Alienfloyd

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Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Into the Trees

Posted by Alienfloyd

Bitterness falling on the ground of my soul like the ash of millions of burning dreams. Sometimes I reach out to touch them and grasp the nothingness, holding tightly, hoping with my eyes shut. Hoping with my mind closed that I will hear nothing and feel nothing and see only blackness. 

That I will not see the barrenness of my heart, the frailties of my mind. 
The oily black snake relaxed its jaw releasing it's fangs, the fire coarsed through my veins, my mind screamed the lights danced like wiley devils taunting my ears with the sound of the Forrest.
"Suddenly I stopped ...

Monday, January 05, 2009

Injected with a Poison!

Posted by Alienfloyd

(Infected mushroom in my ears), when I was young I would wait to the last minute to finish my reports, my daughter left her report at school all break, so tonight guess what I get to do. Type tipe, thype, the report.  My patience runs very thin after 8:30 pm.  I want all the kids in bed but that never happens, there is usually one remaining.  

I found that Nate likes Hot tamales candy. I love the fact he likes the spicy stuff. 
Today I was able to get up and teach something about my department today at work. It went pretty well, I always get really nervous right before and I have to force myself to relax. (I hate dancing shows, put some freaking clothes on).  The lame joke or poke at a co-worker gets me to relax. 
The drive in the snow is getting tiresome.  If I could exist in the dessert and breathe at the same time.  The smog and planting of non native plants really did me in in Arizona. (Since when is tap-dancing cool, holy cow!) 
Oh yeah and evolution is working perfectly in my body to become allergic to everything on the planet. 
 Clamato anyone?

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Gloria!

Posted by Alienfloyd

The day of puke is winding to an end, so lets celebrate with a large hearty meal and really test our stomach's. I rarely watch football and being in my sickened state I watched the Chargers colts game but I ended up missing the OT due to puke by children. I was happy to see SD won.  I was listening to Enid Green on her Saturday talk show. She compared the Palestine  Israel war to "What if Tooele was firing rockets into Salt lake ".  Nice! Enid the one time I listen to you, my town gets compared  to a community housing terrorists.  

I spent most of yesterday thinking the Texas Roadhouse made me sick. I guess I was wrong, which is good because that was one of the best steaks I have had in along time.  The overabundance of peanut dust was shutting down my breathing though. 
We then had to drive home in a blizzard, props to Dave for pointing out the car spinning out of control towards us, that could have been bad.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

With a shout!

Posted by Alienfloyd

Day 1 of 2009...Hmmm didn't feel much different from yesterday. It was rather warm tonight like the the calm before the storm.  The prime rib was good a little pink, but excellent flavor. Wade set off some fire works for the kids, that was a first for me, fireworks ...oh wait I think I went downtown Phx one year.  1984.... I'm sitting on the bus trying to not panic as usual Robert Palmer's "I didn't mean to turn you on" is playing.  Being the kid that analyzed all lyrics, I never bought into the whole I listen because of the beat  B.S.  I'm 9 or 10 wondering what is he talking about does she have a switch and she doesn't sound too happy now Robert.  The next song in my flash back would be Mony Mony ride a freakin pony Billy Idol or was the Cougar Mellancamp, can someone set me straight.. that song messed with my head as well.  2009 "What Difference does it make" by the Smiths is in one ear and Big Bang Theory in the other and the irony is killing me.  

I found great joy in sitting in the basement at my in-laws building towers of blocks with Nate, they were the kind that you could drop marbles through and they go through the maze and drop out the bottom, very cool.  Back to the bus and that stupid Puttin' on the Ritz song...blah blah blah Gary CoopaH!.   I can't wait to get home and walk through the rattle snake field. San Diego was awesome ..."Sweetness I was only joking ..."  Smith's. How I met your mother.