ICE-NINE-SURFER

So the weekend is over and a decent one it was. Camp out to Rush Valley with the Scouts was fun and definitely the best yet.  The girls had a sleepover at Grandma's so I got to spend some quality time with Nate and Nixon. Nate's a funny boy and today I tossed him the football and he instinctively caught it and threw it back in a perfect spiral, of course the ball is a Nerf and he had to use two hands to throw it.  I was stoked, just to  make sure it wasn't a fluke I threw it a few more times and he caught the ball.  He's growing up and it's fun to watch and be apart of. 

I took a couple days off this week to try and regain some sanity after a pretty tough month.  I wasn't in the mood for Conference, feeling pretty cold and hardened to the spiritual lately.  It took until the talk by Elder Holland on Sunday to break through my hard heart. Clearly the purpose of it all was concisely illustrated by Elder Holland. I recommend listening to it if you haven't heard it yet. In a related matter I received an answer to  a question two years in the works.  The simplicity of the Gospel of Jesus Christ is breathtaking in its ability to solve even the most complex issues.

SO I went to Kohl's tonight to pick up a gift certificate. They had one register manned and a line up. "Help on registers at Teens" blares the overhead page.  An older woman walks up behind me with her son or grandson. 

Apparently cholesterol deposits can be seen in eyes and my eye doctor (Mike) has to tell me to go get my cholesterol levels checked.  I'm thinking I'm not so young but I feel young.  My diet has really been bad the last couple of years due to my inability to care what I eat and lack of exercise. This has generally has left me feeling rather like a waste.  I started eating McDeath's again I even had a Whopper the other day and then a killer burger from 5Guys..on Friday.  I want to bike this year but circumstances as they are this may be a bust again and I will be left angry and unhappy with my laziness and state of sub prime performance.  

I am finding there are not enough hours in the day to get everything done.  My fuse is so short right now that the nice filter that I keep up most of the day is disintegrating like the ozone layer.  I really have no patience any more.  I feel more and more like I could easily become my Grandpa in 10 or 20 years.  A few things that keep me from going ape@#$@.  Not in any order: Nixon my little 1 year old tends to calm me down.  Tellin' stories to Natalie.  Nightly scriptures.  

Normally I don't care about sports that much, I do like college basketball.  I however am blown away by the fanatic. Let's use BYU fanatic as an example and compare them to another fanatic ummmm who should I choose....Hitler. Ok Hitler it is.  The fanatic is so completely entrenched in there fandom that they view everything from the eyes of a fanatic.. it is in a sense a religion. If one is brash enough to question there fandom IE religion you are promptly put in your place with the clear understanding that if you cross the line again there will be consequences. This could be a diatribe filibuster on why their team..er deity is the all powerful force in the particular sport and how dare you question their authority.  Gone is logic, for example if you did not go to that school then you are pathetic for being a fan of that school. This clearly smacks of fascism. If you are not blond, blue eyed and straight (this my not apply as we have learned of the perversion of fascists) then you are subhuman not worthy to talk to the more elite fanatic.  If you did not go to that school and you are a fan then somehow you are not able to comment, cheer for or do what ordinary fans do. This philosophy clearly alienates those people that love their teams, buy the merchandise, go to the games, but heaven forbid did not attend college, or went to that school.

North by Northwest..

I pledge:

Could be Obama is really a ring wraith in disguise.  He sucks the life out of everything  good. Rham kind looks like he's dead.  People do his bidding.  Watch out Frodo..er Rush. 

The birthday was sobering and surprisingly chill. It was great! Thanks to Lori and the kids, Thor, Jen, all the well wishers. It was groovy to go eat lunch with my Dad and two brothers at Jason's Deli. 

So I as a citizen in the good ole USA do I get a say where the money goes? Oh... I'm not smart enough, you'll take care of everything.  Let me just write my check on over one second.  Oh you want my guns too. Why the heck not.  Oh Hey I'm a Mormon, I don't fit the standard definition of pseudo Christianity passed off as religion. Oh sorry separation of church and state, what was I thinking lets all embrace the religion of peace...yeah you know Islam.  Where if you leave the religion you gotta die. Sweet.  Oh your gonna "protect " some more land because whacked out environmentalist deodorant free hippy elitist doesn't want some dung beetle to get his panties in a twist.  Thanks I sure appreciate the telling me what's best because heaven forbid I have a coherent thought. While your at it take away my conservative talk shows and any literature you may disagree with.  I know , I know I learned to read in spite of your dumbing down education dang brain of mine couldn't help it. Bytheway I always wanted to try heroin, mind hooking me up ...

As we skate on the thin ice tonight lets stop to enjoy the show. Let us enjoy the debacle of a million years of war and hate. Let's fail to see the common sense answer and choose the biggest lie of all. Let 's find the door that leads down the blackest hall. 

Bitterness falling on the ground of my soul like the ash of millions of burning dreams. Sometimes I reach out to touch them and grasp the nothingness, holding tightly, hoping with my eyes shut. Hoping with my mind closed that I will hear nothing and feel nothing and see only blackness. 

(Infected mushroom in my ears), when I was young I would wait to the last minute to finish my reports, my daughter left her report at school all break, so tonight guess what I get to do. Type tipe, thype, the report.  My patience runs very thin after 8:30 pm.  I want all the kids in bed but that never happens, there is usually one remaining.  

The day of puke is winding to an end, so lets celebrate with a large hearty meal and really test our stomach's. I rarely watch football and being in my sickened state I watched the Chargers colts game but I ended up missing the OT due to puke by children. I was happy to see SD won.  I was listening to Enid Green on her Saturday talk show. She compared the Palestine  Israel war to "What if Tooele was firing rockets into Salt lake ".  Nice! Enid the one time I listen to you, my town gets compared  to a community housing terrorists.  

Day 1 of 2009...Hmmm didn't feel much different from yesterday. It was rather warm tonight like the the calm before the storm.  The prime rib was good a little pink, but excellent flavor. Wade set off some fire works for the kids, that was a first for me, fireworks ...oh wait I think I went downtown Phx one year.  1984.... I'm sitting on the bus trying to not panic as usual Robert Palmer's "I didn't mean to turn you on" is playing.  Being the kid that analyzed all lyrics, I never bought into the whole I listen because of the beat  B.S.  I'm 9 or 10 wondering what is he talking about does she have a switch and she doesn't sound too happy now Robert.  The next song in my flash back would be Mony Mony ride a freakin pony Billy Idol or was the Cougar Mellancamp, can someone set me straight.. that song messed with my head as well.  2009 "What Difference does it make" by the Smiths is in one ear and Big Bang Theory in the other and the irony is killing me.